Today has been quite a busy day, or rather I just didn't have much down time.  After psychology class, I spent the afternoon in the library working on homework and then it was time for CPR and First Aid certification.  As tough as it was to sit through a four hour long class for that, I know it was extremely important for me to take.  As a member of club gymnastics, someone has to be CPR certified in any particular sports club so I volunteered to get certified again.  I had been certified a couple years ago, and didn't mind going through the process again.  The good thing about this certification class today was I actually walked away from the class feeling as though I could actually help save a life

Whenever I have such angry feelings inside, I wonder if that makes me as bad a person as the the one who didn't care about me.  Why are people just so down-right mean, uncaring, and selfish at times?   Oh the lack of care especially gets to me.  I truly don't know whether I am just angry inside when people do not care or if I am just hurt by their lack of novelty.

My day has been a good one. Pretty relaxing up until about 9:30, when we put in a movie to watch – but we’ll talk about that later. My day began with a cup of coffee and some fruit while in the kitchen talking with Mike and my family. I got my hurricane guide for the summer and a pretty neat calendar, at that. After quite a while, I decided to go get ready for the day with a shower and such. Mike and I left for a couple errands. We drove past the gym, went into Bi-lo for a couple groceries, and then lastly drove down Coit St. and Cherokee Rd. (the prettiest of all roads in Florence by far). The afternoon was filled with tons of baking, which I’m happy to report was a very successful adventure for me, lol. The cookies Mrs. Hanna taught me to bake didn’t turn out that bad when I made them myself. It’s actually quite a shock for me . . . maybe I’m not that bad of a cook after all. After some cooking, I battled my brother in a game of monopoly with Mike. Unfortunately Mike lost big time, but um, surprisingly I came in a pretty close second with my brother. It was a good game. After monopoly and finishing up some laundry, I watched some tv for a bit and then went out to grab some Zaxaby’s take-out for dinner. It was so good. It was my last Zaxaby’s for a while so I had to enjoy it.

 

Towards the end of the night, my dad, Mike, and I put in a movie to watch. Now to give you some back ground information, I picked this movie out at Blockbuster myself. I remember seeing the commercial for the movie way back thinking it’d be an interesting movie to see, a thriller at that – being about a man who disappears suddenly and his wife does everything she can to try and find him. Well, I didn’t realize at the movie place that the film was rated R for torture/violence . . . that right there should have told me to leave the movie on the shelf. Those that know me, know I can’t stand to see people in pain. It just does not make my day to say the least. Well, unfortunately the movie was already bought and paid for at my house before I realized this tad bit of information about the movie, but well I figured I better watch it anyway knowing the movie cost money to rent. So we watched it tonight and it was definitely a thriller. A thriller with a very big statement attached to it, and the thing is I don’t really even know if I can properly say what the movie’s statement really was, but it was a statement of thought for America at that. This man traveling back home in another country was suddenly taken from the airport and brought into custody by very important people working in the United States government (terrorist-seeking people). These agents had reasonable evidence to believe this man was involved in terrorist activity. Of course, the truth was he’s innocent. He was a man with a pregnant wife, a six year old son, and no reason to be involved in terrorist activity whatsoever. The men who were holding him prisoner didn’t know that though and they didn’t even think otherwise. No, in their minds they had the guy. Ugh! Just horrible to think how if we think someone is a terrorist, we do that sort of thing. It’s just not humane to me, let alone American. I can understand how important it is to be reasonable not to have another terrorist attack hit our country, but isn’t there another way. A way to make sure no innocent man is being put through something as terrible as what this movie portrayed. All I can say is I’m so relieved the movie ended well. One of the agents (the boy who played in October sky) saved the innocent’s guy life and got him out of there, recognizing late in the movie he was innocent and they had the wrong guy. It was an unbelievable story, but sadly could be very true. I have no doubt the movie was made for a political point, but what to make of it I have no idea. Overall I’m really glad I watched it, but for me personally I could have picked out a much happier movie to watch then that one.

 

I wish the world could be full of caring people. People who looked out for one another and didn’t care about the differences of those that surround them. It’s just unfortunate that the world isn’t like that. The fact that the world holds some horrible people on its earth, makes for a very nasty, nasty place in most parts of the world. All, I can say, though, is I’m going to continue trying to make the world a better place, by remaining faithful to God, by helping others when I can, and by just truly believing that there’s something better out there. Despite the evil in the world, I’ve seen tons of good in it. I’ve met incredible people who care just as much as I do if not more. I’ve experienced the most beautiful sights like the mountains and the beaches. I’m even going to say I’ve even experience the magic at Disney World because it is truly one of a kind. I love going to the movies, like watching a film such as the Chronicles of Narnia and experiencing that world of fantasy. It’s just so amazing to be taken away from the real troubles of the world and experience something else. I love that feeling. The imagination is such a beautiful thing.

 

So as I lay here tonight trying to go to sleep I can’t help but type away these thoughts. I have a picture of my boyfriend right beside me and I have every intention of drifting off into dreamland with him right next to me.

 

Good night all and sweet, sweet dreams!

Well, the “vacationing” part of my summer is about over.  One week left and I can feel the turning in my stomach as my trip to PA grows closer and closer.  I have mixed feelings about the next two and a half months.  I think I’ve realized that I am not a big person for change whatsoever.  I mean change is a good thing, but I . . . well, first off I didn’t like leaving high school, I didn’t want to leave college, I didn’t want to leave the beach, and now I’m having to go off some like five states away to work.  Now granted that I don’t like change, nonetheless the experiences of my new life styles have been nothing short of amazing.  After not wanting to leave high school, I’m so unbelievably happy that I did.   College was a beyond incredible experience and I made so many more friends that I became way more close to than any high school friend, and I’ve only known them less than a year, in which my high school friends I’ve known for almost four years!  When May of this year came, I didn’t want to leave college.  My resentment for change began all over again, and yet feeling that same resentment a year ago I should know better now – but it’s still hard.  I’m so scared of not seeing my boyfriend for that long, for not seeing my roommate, not seeing my family – oh, what am I getting myself into. 

 

The good news is that I’m not entirely nervous about the summer.  I’m also very excited and that could be perhaps the reason why my stomach is turning the way it is right now.  I get to see friends to whom I’ve not seen since last summer at this very same job.  I get to experience a whole world of gymnastics for two and a half months.  I get to watch children be kids for an entire week taking in all there is to take in at a summer camp.  I get to experience my absolute favorite night every week of camp : Friday with the exciting staff exhibition EIGHT times this summer!  How awesome is that!!  I get to meet tons more people and interact with kids for the entire summer.  I am so excited to experience all these things!

 

Overall, I think the summer is going to be a fantastic one but I know even more so I’m going to be sooooo happy to be returning to NC State and more importantly to the best friends a girl good ask for.  Welcome Summer of 2008 but I can’t wait for Fall!  J